Mackenzie Carose

Books Are Home

By Mackenzie 2 Comments

“Books are the plane, and the train, and the road. They are the destination and the journey. They are home”. – Anna Quindlen.

Books. Are. Home. I absolutely love this quote. Reading is everything to me if you aren’t aware. I participate in a monthly book blog link-up, and I pretty much wear out my library card on a weekly basis. If I am breathing, then I am reading.

Books have always been a love for me as well as a literary escape when times in my life were tumultuous. But words, when they leap off the page, can take you anywhere. I love getting lost in a story! Reading is so important and I am happy that I have passed on my love of reading to my oldest daughter. My youngest daughter is three and has a very, very short attention span so she likes books, but then something else grabs her attention and off she goes! 🙂

My oldest daughter absolutely loves the Diary of a Wimpy Kid series.

My youngest daughter’s shelves are mostly board books that include Paw Patrol and Blue’s Clues which are two of her favorites.

My bookshelves are mostly mysteries. I do have a shelf of non-fiction as well but mysteries are my favorite genre and are books that I go to again and again.

I feel like books will carry you through hard times when nothing else will. When you need to learn, pick up a book. You need to figure out something, pick up a book.

I hope my girls always continue to learn and cultivate their love of reading.

Are you a bookworm as well? Let me know in the comments!

Aspiring

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I have a bit of a love/hate relationship with social media and when I say “social media”, I am referring specifically to Instagram. That is really the only platform I use and I do enjoy it most of the time. But there are aspects of it that are bothersome and one of those aspects as it relates to me specifically is this concept of aspiring.

Aspiring definition: directing one’s hopes and ambitions toward becoming a specified type of person. Instagram as a platform is breeding ground for aspirational wants. “Want to lose weight and fit into skinny jeans? Follow this perfect looking person!” “Want to travel more? Follow this person who makes a living travelling to all these places and people pay her to do it!” “Want to (insert here)? Follow this person!!!!!!!” You get the drift. Slowly but surely, we start following people who we aspire to be or look like or want some aspect of their life without really asking ourselves if that is what we truly want.

Lest you think I only follow who I absolutely want to follow, I am not immune to this type of encroachment. I realized this when I was trying to figure out how to spend less time on Instagram itself. The whole app was bothering me truth be told. The ads, the influencers peddling crap. people trying to grow their accounts honestly and failing. The sameness of everything. The feeling of this “need” to constantly check in and see what is going on. I was trying to figure out why I was on this app & why it seemed so important. I decided to take a hard look at who I was following and why.

One of the things I realized is I was following a lot of people who garden and can their harvest. Hmmm…. Why am I following these people? I admire what they are doing and am not taking anything away from that amazing feat of accomplishment, but I will never do this. I was aspiring to be someone who cans their food. Never mind my intense fear of botulism, this is just something that in my life today, I have no desire to do. So why was I following intensely, what these people were doing? I don’t want to can my own tomatoes or make my own jam. It sounds interesting but I really don’t want to do that. Why were these people and their daily garden exploits in my feed?

Maybe I was feeling this need to do it somehow because I am a homemaker? Could be. Do I just admire what they are doing? Maybe. But this type of gardening super-ninja is someone I don’t want to be. And spending copious amounts of my everyday life invested in whether or not they have enough veg to do all their canning was not making sense mathematically to me. I needed my time back. So I hit the unfollow button.

This concept of “aspiring” is still something I am working on. I am slowly making my way through whom I follow and seeing if it helps or hinders me when I am on the app. I am consciously deciding who and what is worth my time when I am on Instagram. Life, real life, is what happens off of those squares. I like Instagram but it can definitely pull you in and there is more to our days in the here and now than constantly scrolling. I want to make sure that if I am spending time on that app, that it is for the right reasons. I don’t want to aspire to look like someone else. I want to look like me. I don’t want the perfect home. I want my home with books on the kitchen table and Paw Patrol toys strewn about on the floor.

How do you handle Instagram? Let me know in the comments? 🙂

Role Reversal

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I recently posted this to my Instagram account:

I am still in the midst of feeling all the feelings regarding this and what all these changes will mean and continue to mean. Time does not stand still for anyone, least of all our parents. They took care of us for a certain period of our lives and now… now we take care of them.

For now, to get through all the packing and what not, I am compartmentalizing. Some days I cry because my dad is my dad. I want him to live forever and ever and imagining an inevitable time where that may not happen sends me into a tailspin that I am not willing to contemplate or acknowledge at this moment.

And honestly, I do not know what the future will hold. My dad may be here with us for many, many years. He may not. Only the Lord knows the answer to that definitively. But I am here, the adult child, doing what needs to be done. Contemplating the way life goes and the role reversal that inevitably makes its way to our door.

I am holding on to it all, moment by moment.

That is all I can do.