Back in January, I wrote about creating my vision board for 2022 and the words that I chose to encompass what I thought the next 12 months would bring forth. I spoke about the feelings of renewal and rebirth, and how those were the words and feelings that I would be focusing on for the next 365 days. You can read more about that here: The Road I am Taking: Vision Board 2022.
So, how is it going? It is going along as I thought it would. I wasn’t going into this year thinking massive changes would simply happen overnight. I wasn’t going to just suddenly wake up and be the butterfly without going through the caterpillar stage at all. I knew there would be ups and downs, highs and lows, shedding old thoughts and thinking new ones.
The renewal is happening, just at its own pace.
A big goal for me this year is to be more comfortable in my own skin. Self-esteem comes to some more easily than others and it is something that I continue to work on. Childhood trauma can do a number on your thinking process and how you view yourself and I have had to do the work in changing how I view myself. I still have moments that I think that I am not good enough to do something, but I always follow up that thought with “why not me?” The only person I limit with my lack of faith in myself, is myself. Anything negative that pops in my head, I try to follow it up with something positive. This has helped me tremendously. I am not my thoughts. Thoughts are something that happen, but I do not encompass them.
My health is an ongoing part of my life that I focus on daily. I exercise most days of the week, try to incorporate as much fruit and veg as I can, and drink water. Meditating has helped me as well. 10-15 minutes in the evening has been conducive to helping me deal with anxiety.
I mentioned that when creating my vision board, I really wanted to focus more on writing and photography as those are my true creative outlets. On the writing front, I have definitely accomplished that. I have done pretty well at getting a blog post up at least once a week which would equal 52 posts for the year which is quite a lot. I may or may not hit the 52-post goal of sorts, but I am writing as much as possible which makes me happy.
I have not been as active on the photography front if I am being honest. I used to enjoy taking photos and posting them to Instagram but my enjoyment for that particular platform has been waning for several months now. I am thinking of just taking photos and maybe tinkering around with them to get better at editing and shadowing and the different kinds of light you can use, etc… Maybe a photography course of sorts? I am not sure. I will have to think about this one for a bit.
Mais Oui I am learning French! I am true beginner however so I can’t hold conversations yet or anything, but I am challenging myself every day to learn more. I am using the app Duolingo which was recommended to me by a friend. It is really easy to use, and they have many languages to choose from if you are interested in learning a new one as well!
The phrase “in need of a new outlook” is something that was important to me back in January when I created this vision board and it is still important now, 6 months in. Old thoughts and ways of seeing things are giving way to new thoughts and ideas. Part of having a vision board is envisioning a different kind of future, a different kind of life than the one you have now. My new outlook is helping me see goals and accomplishments that I thought I could never have, but now know, are within my reach. Remember earlier I said the phrase “why not me?” These 3 words help me see things in such a different perspective. My path may be meandering and go in different directions sometimes, but I will get there. I can do it.
This is still the year of renewal and rebirth. That hasn’t changed. I am still finding my way and trusting that where I am today matters for who I am tomorrow.
I am walking to the beat of my own drum and I kind of like it.
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